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Friday, August 29, 2014
我终于写新帖啦~
好久没有把思绪整理整理了。 慢慢长大，慢慢发现不再喜欢把东西都写出来。 这一刻的感受不代表是最真实的。 它或许只是一时之气？一股冲动？ 每当决定了一些重大事情，在当时觉得是正确的，一觉醒来，或许立场就改变了。 若把所有事情都一字不漏的写出来，我反而觉得词不达意。 收藏在心里的往往是最真实，最贴切的。 以前的冲劲好像不见了。 是我自己认为自己对学会有一股热血吗？ 真的存在吗? 现在再也没有信心可以兼任一切。 好想为学会做一些事，可是总觉得自己的事都忙不过来了。 实在是太佩服身边的朋友了。 既然答应了，就有始有终的坚持下去吧！ 我希望我还是可以的! :) My heartbeat stopped @ 11:32 PM
Thursday, May 1, 2014
Hi everyone, I'm back. Just had a long talk with my friends. Suddenly realized how small the world is, how amazing it is. Three of us actually know the same person, despite the fact that three of us are from totally different places. It actually gave me goosebumps! It made me believe in fate even more. I hope our friendship will last even though we are heading for the different path in the future.
Knowing someone more, somehow makes me think so much more. I wonder what kind of person I am. What do people feel about me. I know it is impossible to please every single one out there, but still I don't like that feeling. I hope I can be a better person. I wish I can. I really do. My heartbeat stopped @ 12:23 AM
Tuesday, February 11, 2014
Whoa. I nearly stopped blogging for three months! Reading back my own entries, totally forgot I wrote stuff like that. Lot of things happened. Thing I never thought I would be a part of it. Few months back then, I thought I was unfortunate. The feeling of unable to gain the trust of my own best friend. From months to months, I hope I become stronger. I've done my own part, there's nothing to regret. I am lucky because I've already met the most important friends in my life from the very start. A new year has come, hope it start off well. Best of luck everyone!
I wanna be happy :) My heartbeat stopped @ 10:41 PM
Tuesday, November 12, 2013
知道太仔细是好事吗？
不知道可以当作不存在，但是心里还是会猜测。
当已经清楚了，虽然和预测的一样，但是竟然还会觉得震撼。
没有了眼泪，但是心跳却像鼓一样跳着。
没想过会遇到这样的事。
最自豪的东西竟被质疑了。
看来，太复杂还是不适合。
是真的该下定决心了。
人，还是简单点好。
My heartbeat stopped @ 9:38 PM
Tuesday, August 27, 2013
I never encounter situation like this.
It's not fair to judge a person before you know them. Why do I have to be the person you all expected? Should I really trust you? My heartbeat stopped @ 8:38 PM
Friday, June 28, 2013
This is the third week of my university life. I was away from home for the whole week. Am I busy? I don't think so. But it definitely occupied most of my time. I started to get used to getting up early in the morning for classes again. I don't have the urge to write any post when I'm outside.
I met a lot of new people. Nice people. My classmates are incredibly awesome. Indulging the an completely new environment, somehow has its own pros and cons. I'm happy to meet new people, but seriously I do miss my friends back in secondary school. Friends that I used to see them everyday. I'm still finding a way to balance my social life, I don't want to left out any of my friends, new or old. Living outside made me realized how good it is at home. Home, my comfort zone, a place where I'm familiar with. It is good or bad? Staying in my comfort zone? I doubt my own judgement sometimes. Due to previous experiences, it doesn't end good when I tried to step out of my comfort zone. Hmm... Sometimes, I wish I'm more mature when it comes to making own decision. But still, leaving home, away from my family. It makes my heart aches. My heartbeat stopped @ 11:27 PM
Thursday, May 23, 2013
Been staying in for almost 6 months. Finally it came to an end. It feel surreal. I was thinking, whoa, it's finally my turn. I waited for the letter for days, I kept checking the doorsteps, in case the postman showed up. I remembered how I used to wait for letters from my best friend during school holiday. I guess not lot of kids nowadays still do writing. I always love receiving letters from my friends. It makes me feel important. People are willing to spend their time and effort to write for you. It feels special.
Finally I got the letter yesterday. I passed the due date, but luckily it did not affect anything. Now the only thing I need to do is to PACK! Heading to the orientation this Sunday. Little butterflies in my stomach. I am going to a completely new environment. With no friends. How come it's so easy when I was in Standard One? Well, I can't imagine what will happen during the orientation. Just hope that all will be completely fine. Finger crossed! My heartbeat stopped @ 11:12 PM
Sunday, May 12, 2013
There she is.
Always so reliable. Since I remembered, she is always there. She is the strength of our family. She is the most beautiful woman I ever seen. Sometimes she may seems to be fierce, but she's kind inside. I never doubt the things she told me. Deep down in my heart, I know she's always right. She is my first mentor, my first friend. She taught me everything I should know when I was a child. She is the wisest person in my life. I respect her. She may seems to be stubborn sometimes. But it's in a good way, and that's her charm. She is my mom. I am grateful. Grateful for having her in my life. Yeah, there's some conflicts sometimes. But this is life. There's always highs and lows. We have hard feelings sometimes, but it never last long. I never allow it to. Every family has its own story. Don't judge before you the whole of it. I think I have the greatest mom in the world. On this special day, although it may be a little too cheesy, but still, I wanna say it. Mom, I love you. 12/5/2013 My heartbeat stopped @ 11:16 PM
Saturday, April 6, 2013
终于期满了。
我也卸下了教师这个重任。 每天这样打打闹闹的，那么快就过了两个月。 每天的早上，我都过的很平静、很有成就感。 那班的学生都很听话。 可能是比较小的关系吧，比较容易管教。 也总说些很贴心的话～ 一到了下午，高年级的学生回了来。。。 感觉就好像打仗。 又要催他们冲凉，有要催他们吃饭，晕！ 高年级的也比较会顶嘴。 不过，有时和他们的对话也蛮有趣的。 常常带他们去公园玩。 在最后一天，和他们玩了一场Ice and Water。 很久没这样跑了～～ 最后一天，我把礼物都分给他们了。 有的喜，有的悲。 一次的失误，竟让欲勤拿到了女生的铅笔盒！ 哈哈哈，真是失礼啦！ 最窝心的是， 他们都各自做了卡片给我。 我也写了他们的纪念册。 就这样， 度过了教他们的最后一天。 看回照片， 他们都很可爱。 我开始想念他们了。 希望他们以后学越进步， 都过得平安、快乐！ 我会记得你们的。 My heartbeat stopped @ 10:06 PM
Saturday, March 23, 2013
The SPM results was revealed two days ago. The night gets harder and harder to sleep well when it gets closer the that day. However, the night before it, I slept unexpectedly well. I guess I was too tired for being in the worried mode, haha. That day I got a day-off from Janiece, which was quite happy, but the whole journey to school was nerve wracking! It was a lot of people when I reached school. In quite a confused situation, I went here and there to look for my SPM slip.
Seriously, I am very grateful for getting my results. It was better than my trials and my own expectation. Thank you so much! Went celebrating with Xin Rou and Siok Yin after that. First time drove at night. Hmm... New experience and new challenge. Haha. Sent Siok Yin home after that, ignored my amateur driving skills, haha! The only thing left is what I want to do in my future. The most important part. Change a lot of times. Which is the one? My heartbeat stopped @ 9:52 PM
Sunday, March 3, 2013
Hard to imagine right? Me, as a teacher. Been teaching for awhile already. I really had to admit, primary school syllabus are getting harder and harder! It was really nerve breaking whenever they asked me a question! Especially science. Shame on me which used to be a science student... Can't believe they are learning reproduction in Standard 4! We only saw the whole zygote-to-baby flow chart in Form 5 biology class... I guess their world are getting more competitive than ours... I'm so lucky to be born in the 90s.. Haha!
Marking was never really the hardest part. Handling them and make sure they do their work is! The class after 2pm is my NIGHTMARE! Two weeks, I've shouted on them for three times! Exclude the moment I warned them to keep their voice down. Haih. I started to feel sorry for my teachers... Wonder how many cells have died every time the teacher explode in anger... Children... Their are cute.. ONLY when they listen to your instructions and do their work quietly. Teacher, indeed is a hard job. Planned to have another short holiday, but I think it's impossible right now.. Hmm... I think that's alright.. I've enough holidays. I guessed. :( My heartbeat stopped @ 9:33 PM
Tuesday, January 15, 2013
Hello there!
Take a look at your calender... Aww.. Chinese new year is around the corner~!! I'm really excited about it. I've been really free lately. A festival would really occupied my time. All of my time. Please. Tee-Hee! Although sis is not in Malaysia to celebrate with us.. Don't worry sis. I will help you to keep those red packets. Safely. In my coin box. The busy lady will be having one month holiday starts from new year onward. Finally. I have someone to talk to. Being dramatic. :D Didn't meet any of my friends lately. All of them are busy with something i guess. Just me. Still sitting here. Wasting my time. Geez. Being negative again. Shouldn't be like this anymore. Just done helping mom to clean up the house. Eww. Dust. Dust. Dust. INSECT REMAINS! Mum is REALLY GOOD. Can't imagine how she did all this back then. When three of us sat on the sofa comfortably watching tv. When we just showed guilty face instead of starting to help. Tsk. Tsk. Tsk. I know I wasn't a good daughter. But I definitely will be a better one. Starts from this year. Today. :) My heartbeat stopped @ 5:24 PM
Wednesday, January 2, 2013
Hey, I happily announce that I'm officially eighteen now! Hmm.. Is it good? exciting? Or depressing and sad? Well, I'm happy for growing up and step in a whole new level of my life. But, still, none of girls will be fancy about aging. Being the oldest among my friends doesn't really feel that great. But, it's not really a big deal. A few months won't make much difference~~ Tee-Hee !
Went to Open Range today. Western Food ! You have no idea how much I LOVE western food. Not that I dislike chinese food. Just we don't eat western food everyday, so it makes it feels special :D
But whatever, I just loveee to eat!
My eighteen birthday. It's simple but warm :)
Can't believe we actually need four computers to sing a birthday song! Haha, grand right~! xDD
Spent a quiet night with my family~ Love you all sooo much~~ Misses you, you and you!
Can't believe I'm eighteen already!
I miss the days when I was still a little kid :(
But that's life right? We have to move on and do something meaningful with our life.
On this beautiful night, thank you dad and mum! <33 p="p">
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My Grape Lemonade Soda ! Slurrrp!
  
LOOK at the food!
Drooling already! xD
Happy birthday to me !
My heartbeat stopped @ 11:01 PM
Sunday, December 16, 2012
Read a few blogs.
Tried to understand what are they thinking. People who usually look convivial doesn't mean they are not complicated. They have dejected moments. Others just assumed they won't. Or others just don't care? Their settings are cheerful so that's the way they should be. Like forever. This isn't fair isn't? People acting immature. Who knows? Deep down they think a lot. People keep declaring they are mature. That's immature. What else can be said? Don't judge a book by its cover. My thoughts aren't mature as well. I guessed some experiences and training are indeed necessary. My heartbeat stopped @ 12:56 PM
Wednesday, December 12, 2012
What's with this depression?
Everything seems so.
So dull.
I don't feel like doing anything.
Even facebook seems boring.
Just lying there make me feel worse.
Seriously?
Just a week.
And now I feel lifeless.
Kept thinking about what should I do.
Where will I be next year.
Funny.
I don't even know my dream.
There's always something.
Something that no one can help you isn't?
I just have to think think THINK.
It's hard to make a decision.
Especially one that involves your whole life.
Future.
---What will you do?
How will you do it?---
 My heartbeat stopped @ 4:28 PM
Friday, November 30, 2012
看看那日期，
原来我冷落了我的部落格那么久。
SPM还没有完全结束，就剩下华语了。
不是不重视华语，只是我能做的实在是不多。
不过，为了安心，
还是预了两天的时间来准备。
还是好胜啊。
过了这两天的假期，
我开始担心了。
担心变懒散，
担心变迟钝，
虽然本来好像已经是这样......
嘻嘻！
未来的六个月，
我可以变得更好吗？
我可以更上一层楼吗？
希望可以吧！
对未来的事，
没人晓得。
考完试后，
最重要的应该是寻找自己的理想吧？
好羡慕那些从小就知道自己的兴趣，
从小就知道自己有什么天分。
我好像什么都半桶水叻......
怎么办呢？
以前所谓的理想，
都是虚假的。
现在我最想要的到底是什么？
看来，
我需要时时警惕自己，
努力寻找自己的梦想，
努力迈向自己的理想。
各位，
我们一起努力吧！
愿大家有个美好的未来
 My heartbeat stopped @ 12:35 PM
Friday, September 21, 2012
How long is it since my last post?
It's September already. I don't even remember entering this month, and now it's ending already. An examination. Took a month away from me. I don't remember what is it like to feel confident when entering the exam field. I guessed this trial, is the hardest shot I've tried since Form 4. I admit, I always been taken for granted. No matter how hard I tried to persuade myself that I've done my best, the results show the truth. So, I'm gonna be super honest to myself. I tried my best in this trial. I hope that will be something in return. But the ending of trial doesn't mean anything. It just remind me that SPM is getting closer and closer. It's gonna be a long way to go. To all Form 5 mates, ALL THE BEST! Hmm... Met my first new student. A six years old kid. Great experience :) My heartbeat stopped @ 9:32 PM
Friday, June 29, 2012
Yodele~ :D
Nothing special happened recently, so basically I'm here just to add on new member to my blog. Tee-Hee!
Went to watch Brave today.
It was AWESOME!
Some people just don't get it,
Why watch cartoon?
How old are you?
Grow up please!
It's NOT JUST CARTOON!
It's a Disney production.
Whoever is reading this,
you really should go watch this movie ;DD
I almost cried today, it was so touching.
It was about family, the sacred love between a mother and her child.
Great story.
Have to start doing my homework (although it's quite late already)
I bet I wouldn't finish it today :(
Geez, why I always persuade myself that I actually can finish my work on Friday?
And the time was like "shoop!".
When I started to aware of my own RESPONSIBILITIES, it already Sunday.
Haih.
I'm so jealous with people who have great discipline and good time arrangement.
When do I get to be a person like that?
Hmm... I wish I could :) My heartbeat stopped @ 10:12 PM
Friday, June 8, 2012
Life isn't easy.
Everyone knows that. Sometimes, when you encounter something, the saddest thing is you can't share it with the others. There's always some problems, no one can help you. Yeap, you have to solve it yourself. Even telling it won't help, so what's the point? It's not new. It's accumulating. Day by day, bits by bits. I can't tell anyone what's the exact problem it is. It's too much, my brain can't elaborate. Whenever I try to figure it out, it always process too quickly. I can't sort it in words. Only depression left behind. So, don't ask. Telling the deepest truth is not what I'm best at. But I know I'm lucky, I got my family and friends, that will definitely support me even without asking why. Thanks. All of you ♥ My heartbeat stopped @ 2:42 AM
Wednesday, June 6, 2012
心情跌入谷底。
为什么有出入？ 突然很伤感 :( My heartbeat stopped @ 12:33 AM
Monday, May 28, 2012
Finally exam's over.
It's really tiring... I can't believe I didn't finish studying the moment I put my bag outside the classroom. It makes me think, why I suffered for twelve sleepless night to study, yet, I failed to complete it? I swore to get better results this time. *sigh* I guessed it will be another fantastic idea? It's been awhile I got a result which I'm proud of. I had no idea what's wrong with. However, I know this time, I really did try. I tired harder than last time. So I guess there's nothing else I should regret of. I slept just a couple of hours every day during exam. It's tiring. I really should enjoy this holiday. Strain of the exam tension. Then I shall be fully charged when the school reopen. :) Good luck everyone. My heartbeat stopped @ 6:23 PM
Saturday, April 14, 2012
No worries, I won't give up. I felt like, everything I've been doing have been a big waste. No matter how hard I tried, looks like it will never really work. Why? I really do hope it's just a trivial issue. Things will get back to normal really soon. I hope. I really do. I cherish everything we've got. Please just have faith in it. My heartbeat stopped @ 11:08 PM
Wednesday, March 28, 2012
Hooray~~
You have no idea how grateful I am right now. I passed my driving test today~~~ I was so nervous this morning. I couldn't even sleep well yesterday. My stomach was twisting, as if there were butterflies inside. I even dreamed about the test. Luckily it all went well.. The tester was really nice! My on the road test didn't start well, but he didn't scold me. That was lucky :) The moment I completed all the three stations, it was a big relieve! I am really grateful. I am a officially driver now ♥ My heartbeat stopped @ 7:12 PM
Saturday, March 10, 2012
Finally the exam is over.
I did try hard this time, but somehow, I wasn't confident enough to get a good results. Last time final exam was my doom. I don't even want to recall any single piece of my memory. I told myself, for like, million times, THAT I WOULD STUDY HARD FOR THE NEXT EXAM. But there's always something in my way. The way I'm heading to start studying. I KNOW RIGHT. IT'S AN EXCUSE. EXCUSE FOR MY LAZINESS. Anyway, I did try hard, only during the week of the exam. But I think it's still okay this time, I didn't feel like vomiting by just looking upon the book XD Maybe it's a good start? This year, BIG YEAR. SPM! Must fight hard for it. Although I don't think I'm ready for it yet. All I want to do after the exam is SLEEP! Haven't sleep well for two weeks. Can't take it anymore~~ Okay, time to nap ;DD Ciaos~~ My heartbeat stopped @ 1:42 PM
Friday, February 3, 2012
The time I opened my eyes this morning, just as I thought, my eyes were so heavy. As if, there were thousands of eyelids over and overlapping above my eyes. I can barely open my eyes. The moment I walked into the bathroom, the light was like a gigantic sun, ouch, I thought I was blind for that second :s
And then I looked into the mirror. Great, my eyes swelled. I looked horrible. I tried to fake a smile, my god, I looked even worst. With those thick eye bag and the irregular shape of my eyes due to three thick layer of eyelids. I looked like someone hit me in the eye, opps, both eyes I mean. I thought I would be okay by today. But still, that's was a big fat lie. It's not okay, not at all. Maybe it's not a big deal to you, but it is to me. She's like my family, like my baby. And now she's gone. Well, don't try to talk with me about it, it wouldn't make me feels better. It only hurts me more. As if you used a sharp knife, and stabbed it straight into my heart. Seriously, I don't feel like telling anyone. Just let me write everything here. I still remember, the first day she came. The cute, fluffy and chubby little puppy. Aww...is anything cuter than that? I was just a kid back then. We tried to play ball with you. Ended up frightened you and you tried to escape at night. All those memories, it keeps rushing back bits by bits. What else can I do? Nothing. I know one day, it will be okay. But do I really want it to be okay? I'm terrified. I don't want to wake up one day, and forget how she looks like. I still remember to feeling of her fur, the way we used to pat her. I don't want it to go away. I want to lock all those memories with her in my mind, keep it in a protected file. I don't want to get another one. She can't be replaced. I don't want to go through the same pain again. Missed you. Again ♥ My heartbeat stopped @ 5:33 PM
Thursday, February 2, 2012
Heart pounding. Tears rushing. All hidden behind. Prepared. Accepted. Still, it hurts. Best ending, sad for us, not for you. No words between us. But we all know, deep in our heart, you're always there. 12 years. Thank you, thank you for being a loyal, and faithful friend all this time. Thank you, for loving us even though we were not always with you. We watched you grown up, so do you. You had a wonderful life. However, you deserved better. You're free now, search for a better life. It's hurt, but it set you free from sorrow and the pain you suffered. Watching you turning from cute and chubby to skinny and weak, tearing us apart.. Love you always. Shall today be remembered. 2.2.2012 There's always you somewhere in my heart. My heartbeat stopped @ 11:30 PM
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
 Today is the last day of the long term holiday.. To be precised.. The last holiday of my secondary school life. This year.. Form 5 . I wish I'm determined enough accomplish my target. I want to get straight As in SPM! Last year final exam was like my doom! Seriously, that result was not what I had expected. I'm not so sure whether I can get good results in the coming examinations anymore. Can I handle form 5 syllabus when I can barely handle form 4's? Will, there's no more time to slack then. I did not do what I planned during this holiday. No time for regrets either. I should never let the same thing happen again this year. Set all the engines up, guys! This year will be a big war for us. Good luck everyone! My heartbeat stopped @ 1:27 PM
Saturday, December 24, 2011
 Nice right? Yesterday was astonishing. My family gave me the best gift for my birthday! They told me we will be going out on Friday night to celebrate my birthday. I felt weird at that moment, thinking: my birthday was two weeks later, is this a prank? :D But I decide not to question anything. I love hanging out with my family~~ They asked me to close my eyes when we were almost there. Of course, I did as they say. I don't want to spoil my own surprise anyway ;DDD I opened my eyes when we were in the car park. Still, I had no idea where were we at all. Then, they bought four tickets... We were heading to SNOW WALKING! It's been awhile since last time I entered the snow house. This is AWESOME! The snow house was -5 degree celcius.. Living in a country like Malaysia, -5 degree celcius was really cold! My fingers, lips, toes, even my nose were numbed! But at least, I experienced what it was like being in the snow. Great Christmas :) The view around I-city was magnificent! All those lighting were so beautiful. We went for the wild life park later. And there was two cute raccoon! I never see a raccoon before, besides in the Pocahontas movie XD There was one, looked exactly like the one in the movie! They were adorable!!!  Counterfeit cow XD  Lovee it ♥  Ta-daa~ Nice view behind~ Had a really great day yesterday... We went there at 5pm. Went home at 11pm! Felt extremely tired when we got home. Yea. I'm satisfied :) My heartbeat stopped @ 4:36 PM
Tuesday, December 13, 2011
滴答...滴答.... 看看日历, 十二月快告一段落了. 我, 十六岁的岁月, 也即将告一段落. 今年, 可以说大丰收吗? 今年总算体会了不少事情. 某种程度上, 我成长了. 至少我觉得我成长了 :DD 今年， 让我感觉像一个真正的中学生。 参与了各种学会， 尝试了当活跃的那也个。 也扩大了我的交际范围。 虽然比起大多数的人， 那不算什么。 但对我而言，我已经满足了 :) 今年， 和朋友之间的友谊更深厚了。 真的很喜欢和他们聊天。 疯疯癫癫的度过上课时间。 因为有你们， 我的上学生涯才不会乏味。 今年， 我学会了凡事要主动争取。 最好的证明当然是Kdu比赛， 想起来总会笑。 太不可思议了， 那种感觉太美好了！ 今年， 我不得不承认。 实在是太精彩了 :) My heartbeat stopped @ 4:07 PM
Wednesday, December 7, 2011
Heading to a camp tomorrow.
Going to add another fresh page to my secondary life! Whoo-hoo! But...haih. Nobody will understand my feeling now. I know it's bad to think like that, but thrust me, I can't control that. Since I can't change anything about it, I had decided to take it as a challenge. Challenge my patience. Well, things can't always be like what you want, right? So, wish me good luck x.x My heartbeat stopped @ 12:31 PM
Saturday, December 3, 2011
Whee-hee.
Went to listen the undang course with xin rou today. Just came back, tired. Learn quite a lot today. I always know driving ain't an easy task. Now, I'm so sure that I was right about it. Gee, the roundabout sure is driving me crazy. Can't even imagine when I'm driving ><''' But hey, driving is kinda... the grown up thing. I don't feel like I'm that big already. But, I am. Reaching seventeen soon! Why does time passes so terribly quicklly? Next year would be our last year in Yu hua! Not that I love our school that much. Just it's really a sayonara with our pinafore ! Hard to imagine that. Still don't know what to do with my future. I try to picture myself indulging in something cool, but it just blanked. I really can't decide any of it. I really hope those directions would be lighten up soon. My heartbeat stopped @ 6:01 PM
Friday, November 25, 2011
Aww.
I already start missing winnie :'( I know right, time flies~~~ Didn't spent a lot of times doing special activities during this stay over. But what can we do? We don't know how to drive. The drivers--- the two sisters need to go to school. Haih. Had a great time together though. But we are meeting on the coming monday~~ And other cousins.. She's having braces. I always had that in my mind you know. But my mum wouldn't let me anyway. So I'll accept what how I look. Although I'll still jealous with those movie star with extremely neat and white teeth and a perfect smile. But I had enough torturing myself with those pain :DD My plan to have beauty sleep is an epic fail. Slept late everyday! Gosh, why can't I have those flawless skin :(( Well, I still have a month to go~ Okay, this December better be something good. I don't want to waste my holiday like that again. Study study study. I think that's all for now, ta-da~! My heartbeat stopped @ 10:34 PM
Thursday, November 3, 2011
I don't feel delighted.
Had a hard time today. I did work hard, just I didn't get what I expected. I was a little lost, what I used to be confident about doesn't seems to be the same anymore. I know she tried to lecture me, she's right with the theory, just that's not really my main dilemma. Maybe I should take a break. Stay away from what I had in my mind. Or, I've been too loosen? For too long. Been doubting myself, and I can tell you that I don't like that, no one likes that. When there's a time, you can't even trust yourself. Hooo. I should find myself a direction. A motive during this holiday. Don't ask me what happened to me, I don't want to talk about it. Well, still glad that exam's finally over. Have a great holiday everyone :) My heartbeat stopped @ 10:46 PM
Saturday, October 22, 2011
 Seriously, I'm really glad that I had made it till Friday. So long B.I.O!! I looked at the mirror yesterday morning. After few WEEKS sleeping late, extremely mental abused by those reference books, oh my, I looked awful. Barely slept this week. I can't even kept my eyes open yesterday when my mum woke me up. All I wanted yesterday was a uninterrupted sleep. Slept three hours after I came back from school. THIS IS HAPPINESS! Have to quit this habit. My head is killing me! My brain, it's like "colliding" in my head whenever I had any movement. Lack of sleep I supposed? Still can't really relax yet. Still have a week to go. But at least let me breathe fow a day please~? My heartbeat stopped @ 3:05 PM
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
 Newspaper everywhere. All were talking about it. All were shocked. All were feeling sorry.That afternoon. My mum got a call from my eldest aunt. She started to sob and her voice was trembling. I was shocked. But I knew something happened. When she put the phone down, she told me, my eldest uncle had passed away in a serious car crash. I was stunned. My mum started to cry harder and louder. I never saw my mum like this. I sat beside her for awhile. I felt my tears filled my eyes. I can't control my tears and they started to drop like running water. It was really hard to accept the fact.. I skipped the exam of the following days. I don't want to miss my uncle's funeral. I want to stay beside my mum as well. Till now, all those memories, how sad they are when they knew that, it was, like someone use a pen and carved it in my brain. I can't forget all those moment.. My uncle was a really great person! I found out myself knew him even better during these few days. He was really good. All of our relatives were sad. All his colleagues. All of them. He was such a great person and you would hardly meet someone like him again. I regretted that I never know him better and I would never had a chance anymore. But deep in my heart, I know I will miss him. We all do. And we will always love him. May you rest in peace. My heartbeat stopped @ 9:37 PM |
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